Dear,
I am feeling so sorrow and hurt after all these fights and quarrels.
But, I still can't deny that I am thinking about you every signle minute
ever since you left for work in Mount Icz.
I can't imagine how hard the days would be without you.
Though I don't understand why you are torturing me,
I have to admit that all of this is my own choice,
Guess we can be peaceful for a while.
But, The truth hurts.
Babe, You know how much I care about you.
Please be Honest to me.
Merry X'mas!
Love You.
2010年12月24日星期五
2010年12月18日星期六
My day off
Good morning babe
18 Dec 2010
I woke up to the image of you eating mangoes for some reason
You ate them with your bare hands and covered your face in the yellow juices
As I got out of bed, I thought to myself if there was anything to do in Mt Isa
I started googling on my now very annoying laptop which is very unreliable.
There is Lake Moondarra, Hard Times Mine and the Hillary Street Lookout. I thought to myself, maybe I can do the lake and the lookout all today. I could have a quick brunch (usual sandwich) and borrow a car for the afternoon and then again for the evening.
I wish you were here to share the heat with me.
Love
GG
18 Dec 2010
I woke up to the image of you eating mangoes for some reason
You ate them with your bare hands and covered your face in the yellow juices
As I got out of bed, I thought to myself if there was anything to do in Mt Isa
I started googling on my now very annoying laptop which is very unreliable.
There is Lake Moondarra, Hard Times Mine and the Hillary Street Lookout. I thought to myself, maybe I can do the lake and the lookout all today. I could have a quick brunch (usual sandwich) and borrow a car for the afternoon and then again for the evening.
I wish you were here to share the heat with me.
Love
GG
2010年11月1日星期一
无题
大概是从前天晚上开始，我就陷入了无限伤感之中。当你开车载我回家的时候，我发现兜兜转转我们又回到了从前。一切都回到了原点。又是过了几个月，可我依然无力改变现状。我好生气，好无奈。
再说到昨天下午，一整天就我一个员工，真的累到不行了。加之心情本来就不好，回家的路上又下起了暴雨，从未被淋得全身湿透，我一个人在雨里等了二十几分钟的车。我以为我给你打电话的时候，你会说，宝贝，别急，我马上来接你。但电话那头的你却在说些不关紧要的东西。让我不明白的是，你说的关心和爱，紧紧是嘴上提提的吗？如果是那样，我宁愿不要。这不禁让我想起一年前我半夜去挂急诊的事。那时我不敢跟你打电话，一来我知道你手机关机，二来我知道你会跟我说没关系的，忍忍就过去了。原来不打电话给你真的是对的，因为你一向如此。昨天下午我就不该给你打那个电话，因为我知道结果就会是那样的。这些事虽然不大，却能完完整整的把你展现出来。这让本来已经很失望的我，更加难受。这些一起度过的日子，原来我还是一点都没改变你。
现在的我真的不知道该怎么面对你。我问你我们两个谁爱对方多点的时候，你说是你，其实是不对的。我把自己的尊严都牺牲了，才换来你的真心。一年前我想带你回家的时候，你回绝了。今年我爸妈想跟你爸妈见面的时候，你拒绝了。这几件事，都我让心碎，唯一支撑我到今天的，是我知道你是爱我的。但这一点已经不足以再让我继续下去。
既然我改变不了生活，也改变不了你，我不想回到过去，但未来又不是我想要的。
我真的不知道自己该怎么面对你。
再说到昨天下午，一整天就我一个员工，真的累到不行了。加之心情本来就不好，回家的路上又下起了暴雨，从未被淋得全身湿透，我一个人在雨里等了二十几分钟的车。我以为我给你打电话的时候，你会说，宝贝，别急，我马上来接你。但电话那头的你却在说些不关紧要的东西。让我不明白的是，你说的关心和爱，紧紧是嘴上提提的吗？如果是那样，我宁愿不要。这不禁让我想起一年前我半夜去挂急诊的事。那时我不敢跟你打电话，一来我知道你手机关机，二来我知道你会跟我说没关系的，忍忍就过去了。原来不打电话给你真的是对的，因为你一向如此。昨天下午我就不该给你打那个电话，因为我知道结果就会是那样的。这些事虽然不大，却能完完整整的把你展现出来。这让本来已经很失望的我，更加难受。这些一起度过的日子，原来我还是一点都没改变你。
现在的我真的不知道该怎么面对你。我问你我们两个谁爱对方多点的时候，你说是你，其实是不对的。我把自己的尊严都牺牲了，才换来你的真心。一年前我想带你回家的时候，你回绝了。今年我爸妈想跟你爸妈见面的时候，你拒绝了。这几件事，都我让心碎，唯一支撑我到今天的，是我知道你是爱我的。但这一点已经不足以再让我继续下去。
既然我改变不了生活，也改变不了你，我不想回到过去，但未来又不是我想要的。
我真的不知道自己该怎么面对你。
2010年10月31日星期日
我想说的话
我好久没有来到这里
也许每次来的时候都是应为无法联系到你
我最近很容易哭
你知道为什么吗
我怕你会离开我
我两个月前从来不会这样想
也许是被上次刺激了吧
但你一不开心 我就会很难过
亲爱的
你知道我多想和你直说些事
从那天的赌马事情后我感觉好难
应为我每次想说的时候就会听到你说
“你不要撒谎” “你不能说这个” ”你不能说那个“ “你答应了的”
现在，不管多小的事我都会多想一下
比如， 我今天忘了买VC片。 我去了超市， 但是等我回来， 下了车我才发现我没那个袋子。
我心里好难过 我都不知道这么交代 我怕你会发脾气
我好希望你说 “没关系 宝贝 明天再去买”
也许这些都是我胡思乱想吧
也许每次来的时候都是应为无法联系到你
我最近很容易哭
你知道为什么吗
我怕你会离开我
我两个月前从来不会这样想
也许是被上次刺激了吧
但你一不开心 我就会很难过
亲爱的
你知道我多想和你直说些事
从那天的赌马事情后我感觉好难
应为我每次想说的时候就会听到你说
“你不要撒谎” “你不能说这个” ”你不能说那个“ “你答应了的”
现在，不管多小的事我都会多想一下
比如， 我今天忘了买VC片。 我去了超市， 但是等我回来， 下了车我才发现我没那个袋子。
我心里好难过 我都不知道这么交代 我怕你会发脾气
我好希望你说 “没关系 宝贝 明天再去买”
也许这些都是我胡思乱想吧
2010年9月5日星期日
A day without contact
Today has been a day with contact
It hasnt happened for quite sometime now
The last time must have been when you were in China earlier this year
It was a strange feeling
I still thought about you all day yet it was different from yesterday
I still wondered what you might have been up to, what you ate, where you went and what thoughts were in your mind
Yesterday I was extremely worried about you
Yet today, after our conversation yesterday afternoon is a little less tense
We did a lot today
We explored the town
There is a lot of dirt here, and in the heavy winds, was painful to the skin.
I had a mocha which was exceptional for a small town
We bought plenty of painting supplies, one of the colleagues painted a beautiful seascape. I was only able to draw a simple sketch (a little disappointed in myself).
We finished the day with a dinner party with the other doctors and nurses of the hospital. I had T-bone steak with cheeselaw (a special variation on coleslaw with crushed cheese, Disgusting!) The steak was nice though.
The highlight of the day was visiting several art galleries, which were amazing, very different to Sydney ones. I loved the paintings of the Menindee Lakes (we are going in the next few weeks to take photos)
Babe, I wished you were by my side, I wanted to share with you so much today. It was not the same without you here.
Love
GG
It hasnt happened for quite sometime now
The last time must have been when you were in China earlier this year
It was a strange feeling
I still thought about you all day yet it was different from yesterday
I still wondered what you might have been up to, what you ate, where you went and what thoughts were in your mind
Yesterday I was extremely worried about you
Yet today, after our conversation yesterday afternoon is a little less tense
We did a lot today
We explored the town
There is a lot of dirt here, and in the heavy winds, was painful to the skin.
I had a mocha which was exceptional for a small town
We bought plenty of painting supplies, one of the colleagues painted a beautiful seascape. I was only able to draw a simple sketch (a little disappointed in myself).
We finished the day with a dinner party with the other doctors and nurses of the hospital. I had T-bone steak with cheeselaw (a special variation on coleslaw with crushed cheese, Disgusting!) The steak was nice though.
The highlight of the day was visiting several art galleries, which were amazing, very different to Sydney ones. I loved the paintings of the Menindee Lakes (we are going in the next few weeks to take photos)
Babe, I wished you were by my side, I wanted to share with you so much today. It was not the same without you here.
Love
GG
2010年8月25日星期三
Broken Hill Hospital
Nurses
Friendly
Shows respect
Doctors
Adventurous
Inventive
Patients
Complex
Appreciative
Hospital
New
No mobile reception
Switch operator
Loves chips and gravy
Knows everything
Me
Stressed
Home sick
Friendly
Shows respect
Doctors
Adventurous
Inventive
Patients
Complex
Appreciative
Hospital
New
No mobile reception
Switch operator
Loves chips and gravy
Knows everything
Me
Stressed
Home sick
2010年8月24日星期二
Broken Hill
下了飞机 到了宿舍 进了房间
我终于到了
这里是一个陌生但是熟悉的地方
个个人都那么热情
而我最喜欢的人不在我身边
给她打电话的时候我多么开心就像没有离开她
但是在没有消息的时候感觉我们的距离遥远
我很想你宝贝
我终于到了
这里是一个陌生但是熟悉的地方
个个人都那么热情
而我最喜欢的人不在我身边
给她打电话的时候我多么开心就像没有离开她
但是在没有消息的时候感觉我们的距离遥远
我很想你宝贝
2010年7月10日星期六
Proud of you
i have seen a positive change in you
something that i see in successful people
think of the bigger picture babe
i know things will improve
something that i see in successful people
think of the bigger picture babe
i know things will improve
2010年6月30日星期三
A Special Day With My Dearest Baby -29.06.10
My Dearest Baby GG, I was very happy today.
I know you changed something for me,
I appreicate that and
I hope you can keep changing for me.
Thanks very much to give me such a wonderful birthday.
I wish I can make my promise ASAP as a return to your Love.
Thanks again.
Xia
I know you changed something for me,
I appreicate that and
I hope you can keep changing for me.
Thanks very much to give me such a wonderful birthday.
I wish I can make my promise ASAP as a return to your Love.
Thanks again.
Xia
2010年6月22日星期二
总是让我伤心的人，为啥你就不能开窍呢？
宝贝，
你说，昨晚每一小时你都会醒。
那么，
每一分钟，
我的思念都在蔓延，
而终点就是你。
我感觉好害怕，
你总会做最差的打算，
而我，
总在期待最美的结局。
那么这段空缺，
有谁来填补呢？
Ps:新换的背景挺美滴。
你说，昨晚每一小时你都会醒。
那么，
每一分钟，
我的思念都在蔓延，
而终点就是你。
我感觉好害怕，
你总会做最差的打算，
而我，
总在期待最美的结局。
那么这段空缺，
有谁来填补呢？
Ps:新换的背景挺美滴。
2010年6月20日星期日
2010年6月19日星期六
一场游戏一场梦
这一周，很特别，
或许是我们认识以来你跟我见面最规律最多的一周
不知道你如何感想，
但我很珍惜这些见面时间。
第一次，
我不用担心你到底有没有时间来见我，
因为早在之前一个礼拜，
我们早已约定。
这使我感觉到从未有过的安心。
今晚是最后一次你履行赌输的惩罚。
其实原本我并不想出去，
答应你一起去看球纯粹只是为了跟你呆在一起。
很不幸的是，结局还是另人很失望。
知道我为什么跟你闹着玩么？
只因为我很希望这个时间可以无限延长，
好讨厌又要把我拉回现实的感觉。
这段日子以来，
我的生活索然无味，
而你，一如既往的生活，
没了我爸妈这边的压力，
你又恢复了从前的那般轻松。
而我，却越来越沉重。
平日里，我也不敢跟你抱怨太多负面的情绪。
怕你对我没信心。
但即使你不能给我最终的那个陈诺，
起码我希望你会加倍的关心与呵护。
我以为两个人之间是彼此心灵相通的。
但我为什么还是觉得：你依然是那个你，
那个冷冷的，只要受一点点伤，
就会退却到很远的地方，
躲起来，
让我一个人收拾残局。
我不知道该对你说什么，
也说不清楚自己在生什么气。
但是，
我觉得心好痛，
眼前已经一片模糊。
或许是我们认识以来你跟我见面最规律最多的一周
不知道你如何感想，
但我很珍惜这些见面时间。
第一次，
我不用担心你到底有没有时间来见我，
因为早在之前一个礼拜，
我们早已约定。
这使我感觉到从未有过的安心。
今晚是最后一次你履行赌输的惩罚。
其实原本我并不想出去，
答应你一起去看球纯粹只是为了跟你呆在一起。
很不幸的是，结局还是另人很失望。
知道我为什么跟你闹着玩么？
只因为我很希望这个时间可以无限延长，
好讨厌又要把我拉回现实的感觉。
这段日子以来，
我的生活索然无味，
而你，一如既往的生活，
没了我爸妈这边的压力，
你又恢复了从前的那般轻松。
而我，却越来越沉重。
平日里，我也不敢跟你抱怨太多负面的情绪。
怕你对我没信心。
但即使你不能给我最终的那个陈诺，
起码我希望你会加倍的关心与呵护。
我以为两个人之间是彼此心灵相通的。
但我为什么还是觉得：你依然是那个你，
那个冷冷的，只要受一点点伤，
就会退却到很远的地方，
躲起来，
让我一个人收拾残局。
我不知道该对你说什么，
也说不清楚自己在生什么气。
但是，
我觉得心好痛，
眼前已经一片模糊。
2010年5月25日星期二
2010年1月13日星期三
Dear,G
I'm very sorry
Thanks for everything you've been through with me.
I appreciate every monent you think of me.
You should have an easy romance.
Honestly,
No matter how much I am not satisfy with you,
The person I first think of when I wake up every morning is you,
The most expecting monent everyday is that I receive the message from you,
The most exciting monent is when I staying home and waiting for you to come to see me.
However, the distance feeling you give me makes me frustrated.
Half of my pressure is from you.
On the one hand,
I don't want to let you down.
Deep inside I want to show you my determination and dignity.
On the other hand,
I can not understand why the person who is supposed to love me without conditions asks so much for me.
If you were me, How would you feel?
All I want is you acting like a normal boyfriend,
I will more positive in that circumstance.
The attitude you performed yesterday made my heart broken,
I can't believe that is the man said "I love you" all the time,
I don't know what else I can expect given the situation above,
One of my New Year's Resolutions seems doesn't work very well,
I might need a miracle.
Love you& Hate you always,
X
Thanks for everything you've been through with me.
I appreciate every monent you think of me.
You should have an easy romance.
Honestly,
No matter how much I am not satisfy with you,
The person I first think of when I wake up every morning is you,
The most expecting monent everyday is that I receive the message from you,
The most exciting monent is when I staying home and waiting for you to come to see me.
However, the distance feeling you give me makes me frustrated.
Half of my pressure is from you.
On the one hand,
I don't want to let you down.
Deep inside I want to show you my determination and dignity.
On the other hand,
I can not understand why the person who is supposed to love me without conditions asks so much for me.
If you were me, How would you feel?
All I want is you acting like a normal boyfriend,
I will more positive in that circumstance.
The attitude you performed yesterday made my heart broken,
I can't believe that is the man said "I love you" all the time,
I don't know what else I can expect given the situation above,
One of my New Year's Resolutions seems doesn't work very well,
I might need a miracle.
Love you& Hate you always,
X
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