Tic Tac

I always have something to say, but I'm hesitating, not knowing how to put it into words. Time flies fast that push me so hard. i'm afraid i would change everything in my mind and run away one day even though i don't mean to be; I'm afraid what i am insisting on would be vanished like a bubble; I'm afraid i've alreay lost my faith... I'm so scared walking alone without any direction or goal;I'm so scared what i've done would be meaningless;I'm so scared what i am sacred.
my heart beat strongly, but i still can not hear what message she is trying to delivery? I get lost again...
I'm looking for a way... ...