a day at the beach

the sun

the surf

the girl you love

what more could you want

i wish i could turn back time

to the times

where there was just happiness

and no woos

but alas

we live in the present

we must fight

for what is important

Ta

He is smart, but lack sense of humor;
He is gental, but lack of romance;
He is rational, but lack of sensibility;
He is always the way he is.

But he is my GG,
my beloved boy.

纪念

好久了，都想来写点什么，
可是每次话到嘴边，却不知如何说出口。
即使在这一刻，我有勇气打开窗口，也不知道从何下笔.
如同我复杂的心情，交织着无数未解决的情结。

我和ta，
一年了，
从未想象过我有这份勇气和耐心与ta走到一年，
总是挣扎于彷徨与否定的边缘，
却还是一次次义无反顾的投入ta的怀抱，
是我习惯了这样的温存么，
还是,ta, 就是我的那杯茶呢？

总是对未来充满了期望，
却不知道该如何走近我的理想国度，
正如ta常常跟我抱怨到：你到底想要什么？
我问问自己的心，
它沉默无语。
答案在哪里，
我一直在找...

一年的时间，
不长也不算短，
该了解的都该了解，
即使我没正真接触过ta生活的圈子，
可以听到的流言蜚语也都了解，
能猜的也能猜到，
能想象的也都可以想象到，
一直以为我拥有ta的全部，
但其实，也只是在只有我和ta的时候。

ta曾给我描绘过美丽的未来，
有那么一小会，我真的在憧憬，
但久久留下的，
依旧是迷茫的无尽头的...什么都不是。

我的心，
渐渐沉沦。
朋友说我该潇洒点，
可我，
从来就不是那样的人。
是天生的，改不了。

“想要问问你敢不敢，
像你说过那样的爱我”
我没能像歌词里唱得那么勇敢，
而ta，也没有那么执着的在爱着。
那么，
我们都在坚持些什么呢？
又是为了什么呢？

“你的心，
有在为我打开么？
你的计划中，
有在描绘我们的未来么？
你真的有“我们”这个概念么？”

带着好多疑问，
我继续走在有ta在身边的日子。
写下这些心情，
来纪念我们的一年，
我们抱着，哭着，笑着，亲着...
我们忧伤的多，欢笑的少，
我们分开的时间多，在一起的时间少，
但我们依然在想着对方，
这点点想念支撑着我继续相信ta,爱ta。

a day without communication

a day without communication seemed more like a year

instead of thinking of you, you took over my mind

i imagine what you were doing at the time, what you were thinking and what you were feeling

it made me realise even more how much you mean to me

生活的有趣

有人说悉尼很无聊
没啥事可以做 没啥地方可以去逛 没啥好吃的
我觉得人生最有趣的是和情人，家人，朋友交往的时候
不管在什么情况 比如在等大巴 只要我和可以聊天的人在一起我就觉得开心

Happy Birthday to Me

Dear, since you are not beside me, i'm going to tell you how i spend my birthday.

It was really a nice day. I went to BBQ at Bronte beach with my friends. The mild sunshine, the soft wind and the beautiful beach view, all brought me a good mood. One of my friend who is good at taking photographes took some photoes for us, we were like models and felt awkward at the verying beginning, but we were really excited and relaxed later on. After a nice bbq, we went to a club near Bondi beach. There was a charming night view and we had a nice talk in the club. Then, we went to KTV as usual birthday routine. we were supposed to go to another bar and had a drink or sth, but some of my friends forget the passport : p ...however, KTV is always not out of fashion.

Ps: I got two birthday cakes :) That was so sweet!

I was very happy today expect your absence. I miss u so much and i was thinking if you were beside me how would we spend the day.

Dear, i've read your card and it was nice and cute. even though you only wrote two words in Chinese on the card, i read several times and was still thinking about that for quite a long time.

Dear, even though i was not very satisfied about the pre-birthday, i'm still willing to spend more time on you. Trying to get to know you. I understand it's not easy for two people to get together and trust each other. I understand the time we met was not very perfect, you are still too young to settle, and i am with a broken heart. However, I do believe you and me have a mutual goal. Hopfully you could understand me more and care me more. I will do it as well.

Many many Kisses & Hugs

我们的将来

从第一天开始我就在为我们的将来在着想

你知道这个 

可以说比好多女孩子还想了多

你现在想的都对的 雅思 工作 等等

可能是我的自私

我想让有些人尊重 接受你 

这些小事可以给他们安心 

但是我觉得他们的祝福会给我们带来一辈子的幸福 

有时候我觉得我对别人的想法操太多心

对不起 是我错了

我知道你这几个星期很忙 学习加上打工 压力很大

我希望你给我机会来爱你 支持你 在你身边给你加油打气

将来?

亲爱的，请让我用自己最舒服的方式来表达吧!
记得我吵着要分手的时候,你跟我谈起了对将来的顾虑.
从一开始起,我就没想过这个问题,
可不知道为什么,
现在想得越来越多,
是因为你的影响么? 还是我被现实压得喘不过气来?
亲爱的,我很想问问你,
你真得是对我们的将来有计划么?
还是只是拿来搪塞我的借口呢?
我一直挣扎着去留的问题,
最最让我 纠结的,
不是工作问题,
不是雅思问题,
是我眼前的这个人,
会不会给我一辈子的幸福?

我知道你害怕承诺,'
也不轻易承诺,
我知道你身付重担,
也不轻易让步,

我知道我很爱你,
也知道我爱你会有底线,
我会等待你的回应,
直到我认为超越了我的忍耐极限.

我期待你的改变,
为了我们.

亲爱的,我们会有将来么?

想

每个人都会想， 但为什么两个人会想的东西不一样。
这我觉得给人生带来兴趣。 如果每个人想在一块去，会很无聊。没人来和你吵架！
有时候我觉得如果两个可以有一个同样想法，会让好多事好办一点。
但是我觉得最重要的是可以体会了解另外一个人的想法和表情，我希望我可以多多了解她。

时间

本来应该有人来写写中文,不过看这人的进度,实在让我着急,不如让我先说点什么,很想说点什么来着. 最近好忙,睡觉的时间都没有,头一回觉得时间不够用了,最好把自己劈成几半来使. 更郁闷的是,即使是在这么繁忙的阶段,我依然会去担心那些一直困扰我的事,压力越大担心愈多. 曾几何时起,呆在家里成为了我Depress的温床,只要一个人静下来,就会很不安. 我实在很讨厌这样的顾影自怜. 我的生活不是水中月,镜中花,是实实在在的,笑容也好,泪水也罢,都在我脸颊留下痕迹.
我想让时间告诉我,自己没走错,但我又怕等待会耽误了我,让我不能坚定的走下去.
是进是退,是拿是放,好纠结!

Tic Tac

I always have something to say, but I'm hesitating, not knowing how to put it into words. Time flies fast that push me so hard. i'm afraid i would change everything in my mind and run away one day even though i don't mean to be; I'm afraid what i am insisting on would be vanished like a bubble; I'm afraid i've alreay lost my faith... I'm so scared walking alone without any direction or goal;I'm so scared what i've done would be meaningless;I'm so scared what i am sacred.
my heart beat strongly, but i still can not hear what message she is trying to delivery? I get lost again...
I'm looking for a way... ...

Birthday

I ran away from sydney for two days. I was very exiceted and appreciated that could get together with G the last two days. I can forget all the sad and annoying things temporarily in town W. Not mention to the beautiful views, like cliff bridge, city beach, quiet town, etc, besides, the dinner definitely worth remembering, delicious and crisp toasted bread, tender slices of beef,sauteed mixed vegetables...what's more, we had a birthday celebration with only two slides of cakes in our hotel room. He made three wishes but i only know two of them,hehe^^ we had an amazing night!

However,the happiness moment always flies so fast. I'm afraid i can't hold on the pleasant moments for so long that i cried heavily last night, but i'm very happy indeed. we were in a very nice hotel room, only us, without anything else. we can be truly owned each other. I tried hard to keep everything in mind, while the time still moved on. I can't stop crying, the more tight he huged me, the more sad i felt. Only because i wanted to hold the wonderful time.

G, Happy Birthday! whatever happen to us in the future, i hope we will always remember the moment we get togher.

洋妞

我记得十几岁的时候我看见一个混血（欧亚）宝宝。又可爱又漂亮，我对自己说了我也应该生个混血宝宝。我选择去多认识点洋妞。呵呵。在澳洲我觉得好多洋妞和我相反。她们喜欢喝酒，大声大喊，说话粗。她们比我高，比我壮，比我屁股大。但是最讨厌的事她们不会说中文。虽然我的英文比我中文好，但是我觉得如果我一辈子不说中文我会很难受.

Wonder if

I was siting on the train watching the views out of the window.
I wonder if i never get off the train, what is the destination ?
what if i get off somewhere else that i 've never been to ? what would happen?
I wonder if someone could stand beside the machine waiting fore me and give me a hug, that would be so sweet.
I wonder if someone could walk me home everyday, that would be so nice.
I wonder if life could be so easy, that would be so happy.
I wonder ...
I've been experiencing the most challenging time in my life.
wonder if i keep pursuing my dream, what would happen to me?
wonder if my dear could accompany me to go through all of the sadness and happiness ?
I wonder...

接吻

公园

海边

海滩

河边

情人港

悉尼大桥

悉尼大学

唐人街

饭店

换衣室

红绿灯

电影院

超市

mall

电梯

则所

车前位

车后位

火车

旅馆

有没漏掉别的地方？

怎么会。。。

理智怪兽

出生到一个平凡穷家

生活艰苦现实

小小和父母移民到澳洲

承诺做个孝子 好好回报家人

感恩小女

出生到一个普通中等家庭

生活舒服完美

青年时独立来到澳洲留学

寻找自己 幸福 未来

这两人怎么会走在一起呢？

Two sides of a story

The story began at a coincidence. We never meet before, never talk with each other before, I even don't know how to add his QQ in my friends' list. However, we suddenly began to chat one day.

It's just like thousands of normal days, i logged in QQ without intention to talk. But i was on my middle break and kinda of bored, that's why i showed up, not as usual as invisible. Then the magic thing happened. we started to chat and then made a date, not a real date, just a meeting, I never done that before, i mean i never come to see a man that i only talk twice. That's funny. I still can't believe that i've made it. The first date was interesting, we walked around in the park near my apartment and talked a lot and felt relaxed. I think he is a nice man. Started this monent, i secretly think he could be a good friend of me. Then we meet again and again, we gradually get to know each other and get close. we fall in love.

Now we're close both on mentally and physically. I gradually cannot get used to the life without him. we chat, meet, go to a trip all together... I realize that he is part of my life now. However, things always goes not as what we expect. Because of some unpleasant and reality matters, we confront difficulties but we never lost a hope and try to overcome together.

I don't know whether our stroy could be continually. Hopefully there's no ending or a happy ending!